Monday, October 30, 2006 

I didn't want it to end this way...

7:14 AM | |

Sunday, October 29, 2006 

I'm losing it

guess who's back?!?! how's everyone doing?

*cricket sounds*

glad to hear all is well. i, on the other hand am completely stressed out and feel my lofty goals are going to get the best of me. i am seriously rethinking applying to law school. i went from believing maybe 1 or 2 schools might accept me, but now i just don't see anything going in my favor. and just when i thought writing my personal statement was going to be my hardest task, the lsat jumped in and kicked me from behind. also, i am not seeing any improvements. well, let me clear that up. i am improving in understanding the concepts and techniques i'm being taught. however, when you put me on the clock, i am at a complete loss. i'm even slacking on my fitness goal. hell, i'm eating cookies as i type this. they're really good too. i guess i should also confess to the nuggets and fries i had earlier. and i might have had some french toast sticks for breaksfast. i can feel my arteries clogging up.

you know it seems like every weekend i set out to right the wrongs of the previous week and start anew. but by monday morning, i am back to looking forward to the end of the week so that i can try it again. its a non-stop cycle that isn't getting me anywhere. there never seems to be enough time to do everything i need to do. it also doesnt help that i feel like the only one not progressing towards anything. how can this be? when i look in the mirror its almost like i dont recognize the person looking back at me. all i can think is "who are you?...and what did you do with dareal/alex?" sometimes i think i might be slightly depressed, but my perception of depression doesn't really fit what i think i'm going through. but i'm no dr. phil, so that isn't saying much. i do know that i definitely feel like throwing in the towel very often. dont get any ideas, i'm not talking in that sense. i mean, just saying "fuck it" to everything thats giving me a hard time. but by doing that, i'm giving myself a one-way ticket back to my parents' house and that, folks, can't happen. well, unless i'm in school there and need free room and board. oh and to top it off, i've got issues with lsac. i swear, everything that could go wrong is. why can't i be one of those people that just doesn't give a fuck? the kind that live day to day, with no concern for their future. life seems like it would be so much easier that way. hell, life would be easier if i were a 6'5" wide receiver who could run perfect slant routes.

i'm sitting here at my desk with some idea on what i could be working on...or better yet, should be working on, but i can't pull myself away from my computer to even do it. it's sunday so football would even be a good excuse to toss the books aside. but since most of my picks this week went AWOL, so i can't even be bothered to watch any games. i'm not even sure once i hit the "post" button that i'll even want to see what i just wrote. anyone got any words of advice i may ignore for me?

4:05 PM | |

Tuesday, October 24, 2006 

Rude handicap people

okay this wasn't what i planned to post by this sunday, but i had to get it off my chest.

i take the train into work because of the convenience and to save money. as with most trains, there is generally an area in each train car designated for handicapped passengers. however, with rush hour crowds they can be hard to access. so in those cases, wheelchair-bound passengers tend to park in front of the train doors. in all the years that i've ridden the train here, people will make the effort to leave through another door so as not to have to make handicapped passengers move their chair or go around them. and oncoming passengers will do the same without any problems. this is all part of the public transportation culture here in hotlanta as i have seen it. now with all that said, i was getting on the train the other day and there was a woman in a wheelchair sitting in front of the door. she was facing the opposite direction and a little closer to the other door so there was no problem when i boarded. at the next stop, the door she was facing was the door that opened onto the platform. as people were boarding, she decided to announce to those people that they needed to stand in the aisles adjacent to her chair and that they could not stand by the door because she was getting off in a few stops...not the next stop...but a few stops down. not only that but she was quite rude about it. she didn't suggest they stand someplace else, she told them to. i was thinking to myself, what if someone boarded the train at one stop and was getting off at the next stop? why should they have to stand so far away from the door because you said so? and even if her stop was coming up, what was so wrong with someone standing near the door and then stepping outta the way to let her off? it happens all the time on a crowded train. but noooooooo, she didn't see it that way. now my question is...is it wrong for handicap people to be rude in situations like that? i mean, i know they're normal people but just physically limited, but c'mon! maybe i'm overanalyzing this, but it would seem to me that a woman in her position would be a bit more pleasant considering no one did anything to intentionally inconvenience her, but she felt like she deserved extra special treatment when it wasn't necessary. all i kept wondering was whether or not i would've snapped back at her, had i been one of the passengers she told where they could and couldn't stand. i'm thankful that i wasn't. now what was kind of funny was when she did exit the train, the rest of us looked around at each other with expressions that said "can you believe her?"

10:49 PM | |

Friday, October 20, 2006 

It's been a long time...


I can't believe it's been so long since my last post. I'm not even sure you can even refer to the little comic as a real post. I have to do better and I will. *Note to self: Post regularly*

6:48 AM | |

Sunday, October 01, 2006 

This made me laugh

5:36 PM | |

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